Thank you all for your loving responses. I do have a job, a well paying government job working for the Navy. We incurred a bunch of debts which I am trying to pay off. She is living with a lying welfare mooch who fills her head with all kinds of stories about me. I have an adopted daughter who because of the situation now lives with her natural mother and is doing so much better.
It’s just so lonely and I could never stand being alone. I wish I was back in the Navy, I miss having shipmates around.
The answer for me was volunteering at a veteran's hospital. You will not believe how much better you feel when working with others to help our amazing vets.
I also want to tell you a story about my dog-loving friend, a woman who is older and divorced and who has valiantly struggled with the challenges of living alone. Her dog died, just as she learned her beloved sister, who lived 3,000 miles away, had developed a terminal illness. She was distraught at two losses at once; but as the situation rolled out, she traveled to see her sister, and ended up being able to stay until the sister died. The Lord had taken her beloved dog, but that enabled her to spend several weeks with her adored sister, and to help her sister's family, not having to worry about her dog, a kennel, the separation, etc. etc.
I'm not trying to be cruel to point out to you that the Lord has removed a burden of vet bills and pet mainenance from you just as you need to cut your expenses and recover from a financial squeeze.
Like my friend, you might look into fostering dogs through your local shelters. Sometimes dogs need temporary homes, and you can provide one for periods of time without having the expense of vet care, until you are solidly on your feet again.
Well, you have FReepers, the next best thing (except for maybe a dog).
Get a new dog. Let him/her pick you. You'll know when you meet it.
Stay in touch with the daughter--you don't give your heart to a kid by half measures, nor do they give theirs to you by halves. She still needs 'Dad', even if only to know you still care.
Work on a plan to get the judge's decision overturned or modified.
Look up some of your old shipmates.
And pray, friend. Pray for the strength to forgive those who have hurt you. Then you can be level headed enough to have those wrongs righted. It isn't easy, but all is possible with The Lord--and He is with you always.
Aside from that, trust. Trust that He has a plan, and that when all is done and that plan comes to fruition you will be better off.
God Bless.