[Lazamataz]

I wasn't there with my cat when he passed, and I will never stop regretting it nor eating my heart out over it.

Please reread that part. You will understand that you did all you could -- even if you were in the next room and couldn't bring yourself to be there, you STILL did all you were *capable* of at that time -- and that should help a lot.

[CatherineofAragon]

I wish to God it had been different.