Saw Cathy for several hours yesterday. She had declined a lot, which was a big reversal from the day before. She wasn’t nearly as energetic, and she hadn’t eaten. Her liver looks like it is failing. I spent a great deal of time with her, not as much as I would have liked, more like 2 hours, but she was very happy to stay on my chest. There were several times she heaved, and she isn’t feeling good at all. After that, I spent most of the day in tears, fighting tears, or talking to people about it. I asked God for one last-ditch miracle. I hope He sees fit to reverse her fortunes.
I was actually present for the moment when she was on my chest. That was neat to spend real time with her.
I talked with the Vet doctor and explained how this all went down, when I had to go take care of myself medically, and how she stopped eating in response. When I did, he told me, “You know I love animals, a lot. But I would still put a human over an animal any time.”
I had conjectured that if after I saw how much weight she lost, if I had only typed into Google “Cat Weight Loss Problems” I would have uncovered this life-threatening condition before it got too bad, but I just tried it and I got nothing. There is literally no way I could have known about this and it’s risk.
My heart hurt as I was going to sleep last night, got almost a panic thing.
I will spend almost the entire day with her, so she gets all the Daddy love she can. She gets her bloodwork at 2, and, if necessary, euthanasia at 4pm.
I am very sad. Lord, I ask that you help me through this. But I do have one prayer just as strong: Lord, I ask you heal her little liver before the reading.
It sounds like your Cathy couldn’t wish for a more loving owner.