I am sorry to tell you this, but it appears that you yourself are worshiping a crabbed “God” who is not the real God of the universe, nor the God that inspired Paul to write the passage of scripture I just cited.
You, not I, need to repent in this matter.
You have not revealed your theological background, which is now very suspect to me. You seem to be the amateur, not I; I have learned for 21 years in a bible church, and have also worshiped in Methodist, Lutheran, Free Methodist, and Baptist churches.