***and lectured about dissonance and ugliness for its own sake.***
Same here. Many of us did not like the crap we were being taught. We wanted to learn to draw, and paint, not crap about the beauty of twisted metal. I was working days in a steel shop and saw lots of twisted metal and it was NOT ART.
I eventually had to teach myself.
Same here.
I also taught myself music composition and audio engineering, but I have seen even those processes degenerate into a form of industrial, monotonous drivel. I know HOW to use beat-box and looping software, but I choose to create music WITHOUT them.
In my South Florida town, there are the most hideous “twisted metal” sculptures on every street corner.
Turns out these were all paid for with tax money.