That spells either "genius" or "loser." No middle ground there.
You are mixing art with finance.
Could be a genius, who is not marketable, at least yet.
Could be a loser in both the artistic sense and financially.
So many have artistic interest without talent. I love music, own a grand piano; can't play worth a damn. But I still enjoy it. The piano cost $6,500 and is still worth the same today.
Parasite.