Hang in there, FRiend. I’ve lost my mom, dad and little brother to cancer and I think about them every day - it gets better over time.
In the same boat as you. Lost both parents and my sister last September. All to lung cancer. Lost my only brother when he was 51 to a massive heart attack. I’ve got my oldest sister left, and she’s in a nursing home. Thankfully I have two sons of my own, and relied on them to help when I ended up having three abdominal surgeries over the past two years. Life goes on, and my kids will survive when I’m no longer here.