[fabian]

...”The kids made my life a living hell. My life has been hard. Part of me wishes a slow,painful death upon these people (I know;it’s not very nice)”..
That is what is causing your extreme mood swings. It is resentments, no matter how tiny. in your case, it has alot of them build up into anger..like most people. Unless you come to terms and have courage with these personal anger demons, you will need the meds, but they will only mask what will become evident once you pass into the spirit world. I hope you do not wait until it is too late, when God asks you why you did not at least try that calming Be Still exercise that you were advised too!

[POWERSBOOTHEFAN]

I totally agree about resentment turning into built up anger,but I do have a chemical imbalace and I need meds in order to keep it under control.

Mood swings are indeed caused by a chemical imbalance. Some people who have Bipolar Disorder have paranoid delusions,much like those who have schizophrenia.

There is definate evidence that people who are bipolar have different brains. Just look at an MRI and you will see the difference.

[POWERSBOOTHEFAN]

I don’t think G-d wants me to follow some quack who allegedly has all the answers.

G-d wants me to follow Him,not some phony “healer”.

You honestly think the Almighty is going to ask my why I did not try this ‘Be Still’ program?