Yes. worked for 50 years. Never took a dime from anybody. Lost my only son a few years ago. Yes. You could say I’m a loser.
Look at it this way — you made it to retirement. Good for you. At least you got something back from all those years of contributions, which is more than many of us yet to retire have coming to us.
And yes, the SS money you get now is not your money — that was spent the year you had it taken out of your check. The money you get now is someone else’s money taken from them in the same ponzi scheme.
And losing your son has nothing to do with it.