I literally would rather have died trying to do something than carry this burden the rest of my life.
I'd rather be a dead human being than a breathing poor excuse for one.
“I literally would rather have died trying to do something than carry this burden the rest of my life.”
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Yeah...me too. I tried to help a woman who was begging for he life (the perp laughed like Satan) and I failed. She was put into a car, driven out to a field and killed. I felt very bad about failing to stop that from happening...I could not get over the security fence so I yelled that I was calling the police because I wanted him to run off and I could not return to my apartment and leave her there with him without giving her a little hope. Later I would wonder, for years, what would have happened if I just called the police - could they have rescued her? But that night - as I was driven wild with horror to hear a human begging for her life...I remember looking up at all the apartment building windows on the second floor of my complex - they could see the guy IF they looked. They had to hear her screams for help. Big big complex and I was the only one who even tried???? A few hundred people in my complex, a few hundred in hers...and I was the only call to the police? Stockton, CA