What you should do is
1. read your post to your daughter.
2. assure her you’re serious
3. Observe her reaction when she realizes how cowardly and selfish is her father.
-George
Dude.
There’s a big difference between cowardly and tired. I’m a Bible believing Christian, and there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t ask God, “Are we there yet?”
Living here on Earth has been great, but if you actually believe in salvation through Christ, where there is no death, and no pain, where ever tear is wiped away, one asks, “OK, I’m in, when do we start?”
Fact is, people get depressed and ask for help. Sometimes you feel like you’re the only one going through it.
My advice might have been:
1. First, get a physical and make sure you are OK.
2. You’re doing God’s will, pushing back the evil, simply by living your life as a Christian. It may not feel like it, but you are.
3. God has a plan for you, even if the plan is waiting. Pray, and God doesn’t mind frustration, anger, and other very messy and flawed human reactions whilst addressing Him.
4. Look for something new. Anything that takes us out of the groove we seem to be in. For me, volunteering with the Boy Scouts and American Legion has saved my sanity.
One other thing I hope isn’t necessary in Heaven - courage. Is there not one place in God’s creation where anything is safe, where courage and eternal vigilance are not required?