I briefly thought about checking out at 17, 25, and 33, and at 37 I am extremely glad I did not.
I am a Christian, and want to be ready to meet Jesus. Plenty of suicides and lukewarm Christians in Hell right now, and I have no intention of joining them.
He saved me to be Holy, not Happy.
Anybody contemplating suicide should watch “What Dreams May Come”.
You’ll -never- forget that movie.
Every day above ground is a good day.