So very glad you got away from this stuff RC....it seems to take people deeper and deeper into dangerous areas they have no control over....fear happens frequently but those who instruct or teach this often preach to move thru the fear. Nasty business and dangerous to play even on the edges of.
I know an individual who played too close to the edge and fell off. Has great difficulty focusing on reality so much so many job loses in just a years time. And yet still the individual thinks he’s in control!
Losing control of one's subconscious can eventually infect the conscious mind. The problem is that we sometimes cannot distinguish those thoughts that result from observations of reality and reason from those thoughts that bubble up from the subconscious. This is more likely as the mind gets more screwed up in general. Like I said in my previous post, it's simple in the long run, live a conscious and virtuous life. But that won't work in the short run, in the worst cases the demons from the subconscious are overwhelming.
I guess my perspective on it is that I don’t regret doing it, I learned a great deal. For all my past dabbling into things that could have led further down a road that neither I nor anyone else should travel, I didn’t. An increasing number of people lack that inner compass anymore, though. I often wonder if this isn’t the beginnings of the lawless generation.
I still have my spacey moments at times, they do linger on, which can actually be beneficial in my career. I’m in a design-related field and have been my entire adult life. Maybe Paul appeals to me so strongly for this reason, he can give flight to some pretty cosmic, metaphysical stuff at times himself, such as I Corinthians 15. Love it, it’s so beautiful and so powerful. Seeds.