“Almost every sentence in your screed contains the word I, often multiple times.”
Fair point. That is probably what differentiates Buddhism from Christianity, we are focused on the “I” part of being.
No insult meant, it is just a point of difference.
Self-worship is the oldest man-made religion, in addition to being the most widespread.
Its genesis can be traced to the original lie of Satan to Eve in the garden: “You shall be as gods.”
I pray you find out before it’s too late that you’re not God, and that all little “g” gods are idols — idols which the LORD our Creator shall destroy.
But I assure you that you will find out. It’s only a question of when, not if.