Hats off to you. I can’t bring myself to attend the usual parish Church Mass. It makes me mad. Chatting in Church, a celebrant who speaks about the weather, and an unforbearing cantoress that would make glass shatter.
What affected me most was when she described how hurtful it was to God that people were ignoring Him during Mass and after receiving Holy Communion. She talks about how she desires souls to come to know God and to see that He created them because of His unfathomable love and goodness.
I would recommend that book to anyone who is dismayed about the Church today because it will give you a new perspective, especially about your relationship with God. It put me on a completely different path.