Thanks for the encouragement. I just Googled “Latin Mass” and found where it is being done several Sundays a month in a city about an hour from where I live. I will try again in that setting.
For a time I was very upset at the Church and thought of giving up, but then the thought of not receiving our Lord in Holy Communion—I just couldn’t give it up. That’s when I made up my mind that going to Mass was just “for me”. I block everything else out. i want to go to Mass and be in His presence and talk to Him.