You are way older than me. My dad taught me about conservatism, though it wasn’t called that then. He like Nixon but had to agree with his resignation.
Myself, I find am more a Conservative maybe even a Libertarian. I quit supporting the R party a long time ago.
They are off the reservation.(Can still say that these days?)
Don’t know how old you are, but I am probably older than a large number of posters here and have been involved with the GOP for quite a long time (several campaigns and so on)... :-)
And believe me, the people in and behind the scenes aren’t getting whacked out about a lot of this stuff. They know that things “turn” eventually, and they’re biding some time now.