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thanks so much and thank you everyone for your thoughts...unfortunately the hole in my heart has gotten larger the past two days...

after a long day on Saturday with eyes that were burning from crying all day I finally went to bed- I said the Lord’s prayer twice- once asking God to take care of Copper and a second one thanking the Lord for putting Copper in my life- weeping as I prayed-

I woke up on Sunday and felt a little better until I got out of bed and realized there was no Copper at the bottom of the steps waiting for me, no Copper to share my breakfast with or even just scratch her back...tongight when I get home from work and look up the stairs and don’t see my little dog looking down and waiting for me with a smile on her face I’m sure it will be just as bad...

people were calling all day Sunday with their condolences which was nice but made me realize what an even greater loss we suffered....

my wife is beside herself with grief- Sunday we usually go to my in-laws for dinner but I stayed home yesterday as I knew what would happen- little Copper would stay with my in-laws when we went on vacation and they treated her like a grandchild- my mother in law would make steak and chicken for Copper and whenever we’d tell Copper we were going to “nana’s” she’d start twirling around in joy...my mother in-law always said what great company Copper was...

when we were at the vet hospital on Saturday morning, me, my wife and my 5 year old daughter, we were all crying- my daughter pointed to the sky and said, “is Copper up there?” and my wife answered yes....

yesterday my daughter drew a picture- is was the bed Copper slept on and clouds on top...there were stairs that went from the bed through the clouds- my daughter told my wife they were for Copper, in case she ever wanted to come down and visit again....

I said to my wife last night, I only wish....