Jessie, I am a Christian, and one of my fellow Christians was the wife of a pastor. He ran a house church, and one day he was arrested by your security bureau for holding unregistered services. That night (in the wee hours of the morning, actually) her phone rang, and an angry voice shouted at her to come to the police station and retrieve her husband's body. When she arrived, she found that the police had beaten her husband to death, but claimed he had died of a natural cause. They screamed at her, demanding she cease her weeping over the body, colllect it and leave.
That is what your nation is, jessie. Don't ask me to see it as some wonderful land of lollipops and rainbows.
Right up to the point you digress from Red conformity.