God help you through this awful time. I have been there and it doesn’t get much worse than this in life.
When I come home from work the first thing I do is feed the kitties. He was there when I walked in the door and would walk with me to where the food is kept. He would circle until the food was put down. The other kitty goes right were the food is always put.
After eating he would sit near my feet where ever I was.
Today was my first day back to work since he passed. God how I am missing him.
Like a lot of FReepers said; I was blessed to have him for as long as I did. The hurt will ease.
Thanks and God bless you.
GB