Wow..just got home & saw your great, wonderful, happy new year Jack, message.
PTL!
Keep us posted. That is not that much of an age difference. My real sweetheart in life who would still like to marry me is 6 years younger -- - LONG - LONG story for someother time..
but for now woohoo & good luck!
I wish I could share your enthusiasm. But I can't.
It has been SO long since I had any kind of meaningful relationship with a woman. Not too mention that except for Kim over 20 years ago, ALL of the others were frauds. All of them were just "in it for them" and each one left me a bit more damaged, until Holly nearly 4 years ago. I have not allowed anything remotely approcahing a friendship with a woman since, out of fear.
Not too mention that it has been over 15 years since I was on any date of any kind. And that one was a fraud, and the girl told everyone how she imagined herself with another guy the whole time we were together.
P, that was the summer of 1991. I was 24. You were still in grade school then. It has been THAT long!!
I just tried to suppress any need for that kind of stuff since that time, since every time ended in disaster. I figured I was destined to be alone for life, unless I would "lower my standards and go along with the new morality" including intercourse nearly immediately in a relationship. Since that was NOT going to happen--I figured I would always be alone.
Deep down inside, I still do feel that way. I still figure my chance got away over 20 years ago. I still think it is too late.
But that does NOT mean that I am going to let this opportunity pass without at least ATTEMPTING to form some kind of friendship. It is just that I am more fearful of taking the "next step here" than I think I would be trying to disarm a nuke that was about to go off in 15 minutes. At least I think I have a BIT of an idea on how to proceed there(after all, I deal with high voltage ckts. and pulse ckts. on daily basis). --Here, I am totally "in the dark".
I fear that I will say the wrong thing--or not say enough--and that will be that. I really fear that I will be WAY too much of a bore and nerd to be able to pique the interest of this woman. She wants to know more about me. And wants to try and develop some kind of friendship. I am not really sure how to respond, without sounding too nerdy--and ABOVE ALL--I do NOT want to come across as desperate(which I am not) and sound such. I don't need another threat like that from Holly. And, so here I am.