I don't "hate" this country. As a conservative, I hate the result of "Abe's" actions. I DO, and always have advocated that every state has the right of secession, as a last resort. However, this country is what it is, right or wrong. My family and myself have always answered the call in every conflict since the WBTS, and will continue to do so.
But you said that the very notion of "an American nationalist is a contradiction in terms." How can you reconcile that sentiment with "this country is what it is, right or wrong"? It seems schizophrenic to, on the one hand deny the very notion of American nationalism (and by extension, an American nation), but at the same time to say "my country, right or wrong."