Read all my other posts.....it may give you a clue.
Hildy,
it hurts. That's the best way I can put it. It hurts a lot.
And no amount of "I really don't feel anything for her" doesn't do a damn thing to make it hurt less.
Why stay with someone who hurts you?
Well, that's the problem with us women, we think our feelings are more important than men's feelings and needs. It's irrational when you think about it. Of course you have a right to your feelings, and I hope you have a guy who realizes how fragile you are.