"If you don't understand weapons you don't understand fighting. If you don't understand fighting you don't understand war. If you don't understand war you don't understand history. If you don't understand history, you might as well live with your head in a sack." Col. Jeff Cooper.
I think that quote is particularly appropriate for you.
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Congratulations on discovering there's no such phenomenon as "facism."
Get well Colonel, and God Bless.