When my middle son, my challenge child, was involved in drugs, (meth to be specific) my biggest fear is that he would cross the line of no return and end up in prison.
I was not afraid of his psychotic outbursts when he was tweaking
I was not afraid of his aggressive behavior
I was not afraid of any dealer whose name I gave to my SWAT friend
I was not afraid of the monster my loving son had become
I was not even afraid of him dying, because I looked him in the eye and said when we put you in the ground,I will be able to say I did all I could do.
What terrified me, what kept me up nights was the sound of the bars closing behind him if he did not hit his bottom before that..
My long winded point is I can only begin to imagine the fear of a parent when their child is facing prison for a crime that did not happen.
Son is doing well, rolled up, pled out and has been clean for about 2 years. Still do not trust him as far as I can throw him, but he understands that.
Thanks so much for your courageous post. Congratulations to your recovering son. You've experienced every parent's nightmare. As one of the lacrosse players said, "This could be anyone of us." God bless you and your family.
Sorry to hear about your troubles with a son. I have had challenges with my own sons and similar fears. The middle guy is the problem one right now. The important thing is that you have a good attitude and your son is better. Love and support of family and prayers go a very long way to gaining some level of peace.
Boy what you've been thru (and are still going thru). God Bless you all.
Just damn, Protect. You and your son have been through hell and back. I'm glad to hear that he's now doing well. My best of wishes to you and him.