Roads
Had I known where the roads would lead early in my years I would not have had the guts to face the many rivers of tears.
Foresight is not a gift, common sense is since I lacked a lot of both my heart is tattered and covered in scars.
I do not point the finger at others to blame or shame theres been far, too much of these pointless, endless, games that had to end before the toll of human wreakage grew to great.
Since the road was paved by me unsound decisions many times there are high spots along the way my children for which there is no rhyme.
The gems of life, of family ties, tethered by living in and out of strife grown strong in places, weak in some the map shown on the face. For each and everyone of us, the scars are there, right behind the eyes for there the soul is shown to all oh, it cannot hide.
Our lives a woven tapestry a ragged quilt sometimes patched and mended in the places that were not very strong coloured by the laughter, blended by the tears, colours muted in the valleys of the living years.
Brilliant reds expose the happiest of the times tone on tone expressed the blandness of bored and suffering years green patches of hope show through the hills and valleys around with little patches of daffodils poking their heads from the frozen ground.
Hope springs eternal its said I do believe it true for truth cannot be hid when a grandchild comes to you to spread their opened arms to give a hug or two, God bless the little ones who come into our lives to greet a grandmother
Hello Gram, how are you heres a hug for you the warmth their little bodies give a glow to the soul, a light.
By gosh, the roads I took were bumpy sometimes in forest dark no glimpse of light could I see the darkest of the dark was when the spirit went out of me. I fought the demons in the dark for the heart of me.
Somewhere there remained a small glow deep in my spirit soul deep a war was waged for my life the demons fought like hell, but at the tunnels end I saw a bright and shinning light I walked and crawled on hands and knees like a babe to a new life.
One step up two back start, stop, move on some steps came to be a structure to help the climb to help the focus zero in principals above personalities not a perfect remedy just acceptance is enough to smooth out the rocky roads traveled oer the years.
And a place to have some peace that had escaped me over some years. Some joy, some laughter, some pain, some mundane, but put it all together and bentfeather is its name.
bentfeather (c) 03.24.06
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