Why pray tell would I want it to happen?
I think you do yourself no favors by taking chemotheraphy to kill all the principle cells, such that they are, that you have left in your body.
You want it to happen, you year for it to happen, you desire it to happen with every fiber in your being. It's you fantasy of the night. Either that, or you are one awfully lonely, attention seeking nut-job, who can't debate on regular threads, so you put up this wild garbage, to garner attention and company; not to mention the fact that you stuck this errant piece of garbage to news.