I agree India is not a wealthy country. Maybe because of this kind of some of your attitude, India refused your helps. "But I say unto you, that whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgement; and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council; but whosoever shall say thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire" (Mt 5:22).
Please get rid of your pride. Repent. Repent. God loves you. God want to save you. Repent my dear one. You're nothing before God. You're jst a dust. Or lesser than a dust. If you humble yourself before God and learn to love others as Jesus loved, you will be precious. You will be His own child.
"For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?" (Mark 8:36-37).
God bless you.