You write well Rob. Please ping me on your next.
Im in something like your situation. Started drinking early, never recognized as a big problem, but as time passed, I could see that drinking frequently subtracted rather than added to my life. Then over the past 3-6 years it unquestionably got worse. Id wake up telling myself this is killing me, but couldnt resist turning into the liquor store on my way home in order to spend the evening in a buzz. I tried dozens of times to ration it like you, but it always returned in excess.
3 weeks ago everyone in my family got a stomach flue. I got it much worse, perhaps from my weakened condition, throwing up 19 times in 12 hours. Not being able to drink for a few days was the free head start that I needed. I know that Im not out of danger yet, and never will completely be out of danger, but I know that Ill manage it and will never drink again.
Thanks for your story.
God bless and keep you elfman2. May He be with you every step of the way.
Rob - well done, and welcome to the club. I quit 11 1/2 years ago and have not looked back. Cigarettes took a little longer, but I quit those too. Elfman - all the best to you. Don't be afraid to ask for help, advice or encouragement from those of us who have responded here.
(Quit 1/1/1989--thanks Bill W. for the tools. Thank You Jesus for everything!)