[tet68]

but after the distance I have come so far, I have to stop.

OK, you know the answer, don't cling to the past.
(Yes, I know there is a comfort in it but it is a false one.)

In Aikido (a martial art) we learn two important lessons,
#1. Don't walk backwards.
#2. Turn and look in the direction you want to go.

You can do what you need to do.

First thing is, go clean your closets.

t.

[Stick a Fork in Me - I am Done]

First thing is, go clean your closets

What! You've been in my closets??