Posted on 03/29/2010 6:28:15 PM PDT by SeekAndFind
A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And thisis something worth celebrating.
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's the stage. Being on stage fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice. The music, the lights and the roar of the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share.
Many people told me: "Ricky it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've built will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I love dearly, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth. Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.
If someone asked me today, "Ricky, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, the misinterpretation of faith." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
RM
Does that mean Anna Kournikova is lonely and needing attention???
I’m sorry...uh...haven’t we known this for about ten years? How the dickens does he think this is news?
{boggle}
Heck, I heard he was gay ten years ago. Who does he think he’s been fooling all this time?
he must need to sell a record or something and needs the publicity so people know who he is
First Meredith Baxter, now this. All the great hetero role models are falling like dominoes.
Wait! Dickens is in on this too?
LOL...that would be Enrique...not Rick’gay.
“YAAAAAAWWWWWWNNNNNN! Another self absorbed declining star seeks attention. I just dont care. Now on to something political” >>>>>>
My thoughts exactly
I know!
I heard that as well,a LONG time ago!
Ricky, your secret has been out for quite some time.
Can Geico save you 15% or more on your car insurance?
No sheite, sherlock.
You got that right. Finally, now he gets publicity!
how do the wikipedia things on gay/liberal folks get updated within minutes or hours, but other folks take days, weeks, or months?
Seriously - his bio is already updated and ready to be printed. I’ve seen sports’ stars with Olympic medals during the Olympics take days longer.
You know there is a party out there somewhere for this...sigh...
Meanwhile, I gotta get back to work, to pay taxes...which will go up soon for me and my family, I’m sure...
“Obviously a cry for help.
To revive a dying career.”
And maybe looking for a few flings?
I’m no fan of his so he can keep his “reality” to himself.
I knew it when he was in Menudo. Any bets he’ll reveal he was molested as a young boy?
..aaaand Zero farted, Hallleeelllluuuujaaahhh!
As shocking as when Elton John and Liberace came out. Who knew?
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