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myself | 11/12/02 | Genesis defender

[Genesis defender]

This is my first article posting, so I hope I do this right.

I am desperate. My world as I know it is falling apart. Last Thursday morning my wife told me I have until January 1st to move out. She is kicking me out because of many things, but I will list as many as I can recall.

She has good reason to give me the boot. We have been married for five and a half years, and before we were married I promised her that I would take care of her and support the family so she could stay home. Unfortunately, I have a huge problem with following through on my promises.

For five years I have made similar promises of getting a job, looking for a job, and just doing chores around the house. I tried for a time, but eventually slid back to my typical behavior of procrastinating. I have held various jobs throughout this time, but none were well-paying enough to support a family.

To make things worse, I had an addiction that prevented me from doing constructive things with my time. Please don't laugh when I tell you what I was addicted to. It was video games. I would play at times six to eight hours a day during periods of unemployment.

Two Saturdays ago, my wife first told me she had been thinking of kicking me out, and at that point I did something I should have done years ago. I asked her to come into our computer room, collected all of my computer game CDs (close to 30 in all), and I broke all of them.

I thought that had been enough for the time to prevent me getting kicked out. But I was wrong.

Complicating things is the fact that we have a two and a half year-old son together. I love that little boy a whole bunch, but I haven't provided properly for either him or his mommy like a husband and man should.

I have been an awful human being towards my wife. I have had her hopes up, then dashed so many times. She has told me she likes me as a friend and our son's father, but she says she no longer loves me as a husband.

She has also told me she doesn't know what she wants me to do that would make her love me again.

We are separating, not divorcing (for now). She told me the ONLY reason she has not divorced me is because she is a Christian.

So I am asking for two prayer requests:
First, that the Lord will heal my crumbling marriage by fundamentally changing my habits and healing my wife's broken heart. I have frantically been trying to change, but I want this time to be permanent.
Second, that God would help me find a job to support myself by Jan 1st. I so desperately want to prove to my wife that I can support myself and be a Godly man for once in my life.

[xJones]

You're not the bottom of the barrel. Go to church, get involved. Take temp work, sometimes it's the best way to get jump-started. So what if the temp jobs are below your expectations, you might be surprised at how things work out. "Despise not the day of small beginnings."

[Genesis defender]

Thanks for the advice. Will take it into consideration.

Played in music group at church. Felt good to get involved.

I have found about 30 job leads so far. Followed up on about 10 today.

Thanks for all the prayers.

[Auntie Mame]

May God bless you and guide you in your struggle. You have my prayers.

[Johnny Shear]

There's a special place in Heaven for you.

[Johnny Shear]

To all of you bashing this dude (Not that he may not need it)...

This is THE reason why he posted here...Or at least should have been. And also what makes Free Republic so COOL!

Well done, petuniasevan!!

[petuniasevan]

Thank you Johnny. I'm continually amazed that when someone admit's they've been wrong, THEN the sharks come out.

Seems to be a way of being "holier than thou"; a way of making themselves feel better at the expense of another.

Thing was; no one needed to bash Genesis Defender. He did a bang-up job of doing that to himself.

I've met Genesis Defender and his wife and son. I didn't know that the marriage was in trouble. For whatever reason, he was remiss in his obligations. It takes a lot of courage to admit you have a problem; I just wish he'd come to this point BEFORE the wife gave him that ultimatum.

If you take take take from a woman she will give give give until she runs dry. Then all she has is bitterness and a sense of martyrdom. It will take a LOT from Gen to gain his wife's trust. Hopefully both parties will realize that they MUST do what is best for THE CHILD.



P.S. He has taken seasonal employment. It's a start.

[MsLady]

Thank you!!! I don't know about special, but, I have Jesus promise that by His grace and mercy, I will be there with Him when my time comes.

[newberger]

I'm so glad he's found something.

If you know his first name, could you Freepmail me?

I can use that to put his name in for intercessions at church
tomorrow. If I don't hear from you, I guess I'll use "Gen".

In any case, I agree 100% about the bashing.

Paul