The last couple of days have been rough. On Monday afternoon I took my outdoor kitty ( he was nobodys cat and people around here were unkind to him so I took him in my yard..could not have him in the house for obvious reasons...and looked after him as best I could for several years. A feral cat, it took a long time to get him to trust me. First, to get him not to run away when I came outside. Well eventually he decided I was ok and not to be feared. After awhile, he would let me pet him a little. finally within this last year, he would let me pick him up but NOT take him in the house....well the little guy got in a bad fight and got an abscess. I thought I could get some antibiotics for him but California law prohibits providing medicne to any animal not seen by the vet. So I took him in. Ol Buffy had cardiomyopathy as well but worst of all he tested + for feline leuk. and feline aids..so I had to put him to sleep. The saddest thing of all is that originally he was a pet in the neighborhood but the father of the household did not want pets do he DUMPED the cat. Buffy then turned feral and it took a long time to win him over. Had he been given to someone he would have been a wonderful pet as he had a really sweet personality, never hissed or batted at me or scratched me. So that is why you haven't seem me for the past couple of days....