It is interesting to us, but unknowable. We can only put our faith in Christ and ask for his forgiveness and acceptance.
My point is, Edward is a human, like us. Pain makes us weak. Pain can make us sin. Pain can make us recant our faith in God.
One of the saddest and most tragic things was reading “I Cannot Forgive” (AKA: Escape from Auschwitz) and the account of a devout Rabbi who could not bear the pain and rejected his faith in God.
Pain can make us do that. Hence, I conclude that Pain is one of Satan’s most effective weapons against our desire to be with Christ.
“”Pain can make us do that. Hence, I conclude that Pain is one of Satan’s most effective weapons against our desire to be with Christ.””
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Yes, pain can be an effective tool for Satan and his minions. Just look at how it is used to extract info from prisoners. But don’t discount the tool of fear... or even just fear of pain.
I personally know someone that would probably cave just out of fear, if threatened by evil. She is someone that is afraid of her own shadow, yet claims to be a Christian Catholic. My theory is... she only converted to Catholicism because a family member had a dream about her where he saw her ‘in Hell’. Once that got back to her, she freaked out and started the conversion, thinking that alone would save her. But ....she is delusional and has fallen for every lie the false prophets of the NAR have thrown her way. Because what they told her “tickled her itching ears” and told her what she wanted to hear, not what is truth and reality.