“after years of therapy….” The one piece of advice you will never get from a so-called therapist- stop dwelling on it. They do the opposite. They force you to dwell on issues that cause you anxiety and depression. I can fix you in one session… said no therapist ever.
No therapist can fix you in one session. That’s absurd. It takes time. But it was my therapist who suggested I don’t need it as often anymore, not the other way around.