He was supposedly a sh!t human being. Not believing in God can do that to a fella.
Fills me with sadness. I pray that if I am ever subjected to such a trial, I won’t respond in that way.
It reminded me of a memoir of a Jew who survived the Holocaust, and he saw a Rabbi who completely lost his faith. I cannot in any way judge him for that, but...I remember feeling very emotional reading that, and it made me understand better how terrible a thing for mankind that was.