You seem to think you know what I think. How is that any of your business? I am talking about clinical trials about which I know a fair amount and you are talking about me.
I’ll say this again for anyone who stumbles across this thread: clinical trials are for persons who have nothing left but to obtain the esteem of persons who see their generosity in forgoing their own best interests in the hope of advancing science. A noble but pointless step for a person with responsibilities to family and friends.
If the drug or procedure is efficacious you should obtain it directly. If it is so experimental that it cannot be obtained directly don’t do it. Take the best conventional treatment or palliative and get your affairs in order.
You don’t know what you are talking about. You are free to make your own medical decisions.