The best way to handle evidence like that is to arrange a dead man’s switch.
The dead man’s switch comes in various forms.
Some cause embarrassment. Others bring pain. Then there’s the kind that are devastating to the career.
Most commonly, the dead man’s switch results in prison time. Capitol punishment is also possible, as is death by other causes.
But the most severe consequences include complete devastation of the entire organization, with the no survivors among the top tier.
You are psychotic. I can’t help you. Feel free to live in your Robert Ludlum World.