“I think you have in mind a father who lets his kid play in the street.”
That’s exactly what your god is doing. He could keep you from “playing in the street” and hurt yourself, yet he chooses not to.
Nice all-loving “father” yohave there!
That's not the way it works. A father teaches his children about the dangers of life, but ultimately, he has to let them grow up and make their own decisions. That's what free will is all about. God created humans to think and act freely. He won't keep you from doing anything. But he will tell you as an adult that some behaviors are deadly.
It's clear you hate him. You don't expect him to change that, do you?
That's your choice, your free choice. But consider the consequences of your choice. Make an informed decision.