George Burns smoke cigars and drank every day of his life. Is the doctors told him he’d better stop or would kill him. Sure enough he died about 100 years old But he had outlived all of his doctors.
My grandmother never smoked, though she liked a good belt of Scotch in the evening. Still living alone and licensed to drive at almost 100, but she had a heart attack while shoveling snow about 6 weeks before her birthday. I’ve always figured that if you get past 80 or so, it’s time to ignore the doctors because whatever you’re doing is working.
Anyway, please don’t give up on yourself.