My 1st summons resulted in ending up on a jury that sent a guy to prison for 15 years.
It was a slam dunk 100% obviously guilty and it still troubled my conscience for a while. I don’t know why but it did.
mine was for a six case grand jury, but i had to send up for trial a friend of mine caught with a drink btwn his legs when pulled over
if it had been a trial i would have disclosed our friendship during voir dire
like you, i felt a lil guilty, but knew the rules and i dint have to decide his guilt