Sorry for your loss. It’s a hard walk, and I sympathize.
How long has it been? You sound like you’re in an early stage.
I lost my wife 2 1/3 years ago, so I get it. Hers was a cardiac rupture. She had gotten up to go to “the little people’s room,” as she called it, and fallen down. I tried to get her back to bed, but she fell again.
From what you’ve written, I’d say you’ve done an excellent job of honoring her.
It’s difficult, especially early, and everyone grieves differently, but the one thing I will tell you is to make sure you get plenty of support. That is critical.
If you’d like to talk, I’m available.
She passed in November