That’s wonderful you’ve repented and asked Jesus Christ to be your Savior, after being an agnostic! Thanks and glory to God for His miracles.
It sounds like you are very intuitive. Have you considered there is only one reality, which is God’s? It must be exhausting straddling the fence. Ask thanks to Him that we can rest and trust in Him even in difficult times.
Let’s go to Him and continue to pray for discernment. Dear Holy Father, please show us the errors in our thinking and burn away any false wisdom found there. Thank you for your spiritual armor as we study world religions so ideas not from you are rejected and rebuked. Protect us from lying spirits by filling us with Your Holy Spirit exclusively, the only true source of Your power and influence. Turn the counterfeit away when they attack us, in the Name of Jesus.
Prayer To Be Wise In The Things Of God
Heavenly Father, as I look through the Bible at the great cloud of witnesses in both the Old and New Testaments, all of whom were pleasing in Your sight, it is my desire to live the life of faith that they demonstrated so beautifully, and to become wise in the things of God.
Lord, I want to know more of You, to gain a deeper knowledge of Your Word and to discover Your perfect will for my life.
Father, I desire to make a difference in this world and to live for You, even when I know that it will lose me the respect of neighbours and friends, and cost me very dearly.
Teach me Your ways I pray. Open the eyes of my heart to understand more of Your Word. Unblock my ears to Your gentle voice and open My eyes to see Jesus in all that I say and do. Thank You, Father, that Christ is both the power of God and the wisdom of God.
I pray that I may know more of the Lord Jesus in His humanity, and ask that I may be increasingly transformed into the likeness of His image, and live as He did in humble obedience to Your voice, and increasing in wisdom with every passing day. I ask this in Jesus’ name,
Amen.
Source: https://prayer.knowing-jesus.com/prayer/prayer-to-be-wise-in-the-things-of-god-1298
Amen
“That’s wonderful you’ve repented and asked Jesus Christ to be your Savior, after being an agnostic! Thanks and glory to God for His miracles.”
Yes... He had to really hit me hard in the side of my head and give me an experience that compares to Saul on the road to Damascus to get my attention! It was both physically and emotionally painful, but I am extremely grateful for it. The Dark-Night-of-the-Soul and despair are the narrow window to finding Jesus.
The greatest trap or obstacle in building a personal relationship with Jesus and God is a spiritual ego, where we own the knowledge and experiences as a possession and feel we are someone special. We form an individual identity around the possession. Then we end up becoming full of ourselves and try to play God. This is especially true when extreme healing miracles happen. Humility is absolutely critical to dying daily. Although I may sound authoritative based upon my experiences, I always reserve the right to be wrong.
When I am near a person, I feel their ego as a horizontal flow of consciousness that blocks their consciousness from shifting away from an earthly focus to a focus on God. (While it is a Buddhist concept, attachment is also critically important in blocking our relationship with God. Whether it be greed, pride, or any other attachment, we must detach from earthly matters to fully experience God.)
Loving God truly is the most important commandment as it shifts a persons consciousness from the horizontal earthly axis to a Divine vertical axis.