You sound like this Jim Carroll song.
Here’s the link with lyrics, in case you do not know it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AMWPO4Bup8
I mean no disrespect to this poor girl and her family. RIP and SUE TIK TOK.
Well....sorta. At least the same sentiment is there.
But thank you for introducing me to that style....Judging from the lyrics of the song, Carroll was from New York, had many clinically depressed friend who were drug addicts. And he wrote the song before hepatitis vaccines and anti-hepatitis drugs.
The music in that song....probably sounded better when he was stoned......now all we need is a BTS version talking about all the Kpop victims of suicide and untimely(?) deaths. Good mental health is more important than success in any field of endeavour.
Freegards.