People withing military ranks killed themselves when confronted with ETs and artifacts found during crash/retrieval operations.
I realize you are "one of those" who is unable to believe the aggregate of hundreds of credible eye witnesses, even some at very high levels in the government and military.
Please, as this unfolds, don't go nuts and kill yourself.
I won't kill myself. They will, "To Serve Man."
My bile will taint the meat, spelled MEat.
:)