Dylan why don’t you face some hard facts? Granted, it will not be easy but it’s necessary for your well being.
At the moment you were conceived, God decided you were to be a male and gave you male characteristics including XY DNA. This DNA will be with you for your lifetime and you will carry it to your grave.
You can spend thousands on female hormones and makeup but you will still be a XY male. You can spend hundreds of thousands on misfiguring surgery to “become” something you’re not and after all the mental, physical and fiscal pain of attempting to become a female, you’ll still be a XY male.
Face it: you’re a XY male. Will be for the rest of your life. There’s no changing God’s will.
Grow up and be the man God meant you to be.
Just because you say you are Neapolitan, doesn’t mean I have to address you as “your Excellency”