“fingernails on chalkboard”
That’s me, too.
I have friends who are accomplished musicians and who like a lot of the same music that I do. They tell me that Coltrane and maybe Frank Zappa are musical giants but it’s totally lost on me. I’m with the rubes who don’t get it.
In the event you haven’t, give a listen to Coltrane’s recordings with Johnny Hartman. And also listen to him playing his composition Naima. And also on Kind of Blue listen to his solo on Blue in Green.
You will hear a sublime tenderness that reveals the great musical sensitivity he possessed. You will not be disappointed.