I know how you feel.
Haven’t seen 2 grandsons due to Covid. (We’re not vaxxed)
Never met the other 2 grandsons due to an ex-wife.
Continue to bless them. God will soften hearts and answer the desires of our hearts.
Neither of you is alone. Never thought in my life I would have such distance from my grandchildren where I am now. And even one of my own sons has distanced himself after seperating from his family. These things are happening on such a “normal” pace these days.
It just seems when these things happen they all pull away as it paralizes relationships.