How sad for you. I have dozens of girl friends, many I have known decades - some single, some married some widowed - and all are beautiful, loving and giving- both inside and out.
I hope you will one day come across someone who will bring a light of beauty into your life.
When I was much younger, I had the misfortune of being involved with an abusive man who lied about being employed. He almost caused me to be bankrupt but after he punched yet another hole in the wall over my shoulder, I managed to get away and had to relocate to hide from him. I don’t judge everyone by his actions.
I do wish you well.
I’m happily married. Thanks anyway.