Like others on this thread, I have learned to embrace loneliness. I tend not to argue to much with myself. ;-D
Are you turned out because you are conservative, and they are not? Do not feel compelled to answer, I just want to know why I feel like choking people I've never met. ;-D
The last time I was put out, was Christmas eve at my brother’s house. He loved to serve lasagna for the meal. I can’t eat the spicy food, and my dad didn’t like pasta. So that year, I called and told my brother that I would be brining something that I could tolerate. I mentioned that dad (87 yo) didn’t like lasagna. My brother said that my dad could go hungry.
I gave my dad 1/2 of my meal. He didn’t realize what was going on and complimented the hostess for such a delicious meal. This pissed off my brother and his MIL. It got very nasty. (as a survivor, when it gets really bad, I shut down) I do remember leaving, stunned and not trusting myself.
I was put out because I stood up for my dad, I didn’t want him to be hungry. I was not liked by my family because I got sober. This threatened them. I am the only conservative, non-union member. I know that it doesn’t make sense. As my mom died, I held her hand. She said that she didn’t know I was so nice. I thought because you wouldn’t let me be nice. I just told her that I got the nice from her.